MOTHER AT PEACE [DOES GOD REALLY EXISIT]
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| Thu, 05-24-2007 - 12:36pm |
I think he does. i have always grew up believing in god knowing that he has always been there for me when i needed him. i pray to god every night and think him for everthing, and mostly my children for intrusting me with his kids. lets talk about his power.
As a lot of you know my family has been in crisis since march. I have been so consumed with hate and anger towards my 13 y/o that i forgot how to forgive and love. i forgot how to love my son who made a very bad choice in life. but i have been praying to god evernight to help him, to save him. because i could not do it and i was treating him like crap.God was sending me signs i was just to angry and raging to see them. Then on monday i found some money not alot but enough. so i picked it up off the ground and thanked god for every dollar he sent me. on saturday there was a movie on called black dog it had randy travis in it. and i mentioned to my husband . so with some of the money i bought all of randy cds i only wanted to songs. on randys cd 3 wooden crosses there was another song called i heard the song but felt nothing but the words did catch me a bit. so i made my 13y/o listen when the song was done he had a tear in his eye, i did the same on the 3 crosses , same thing he cried with the song. so i thanked god for finnally getting to my 13y/o so it was time for school i sent them on there way and i listened to the song again, but this time i feel to my knees in front of god and just cried so hard and cried for my 13y/o but not yesturday. and at that moment i felt such a peace come over me, i was not angry any more, and i knew what i had to do. i needed to forgive my kid for what he done. but i knew in my heart.
So does god really exisit, he was sending me signs and i was ingorning him because i was so angry. i have givin my pain to god quite a few times but i always take it back. yesturday god came and took my pain! and all i can say is thanks to randy travis for his insperatonal songs because god spoke to me threw him. to get to me. You know every one asks me dusty where does your strength come from? and i tell them i do not know. well i do know now my strength comes from god!
I know alot of us wonder. i can honestly say yes he does. You have to feel him to understand his power. and i felt that yesturday. i am no longer a raging mother.And i forgave my son last night, he is not justifed what he has done.but i begged him to take god into his heart and feel his power as i did.
my god bless all of you who read this letter.

I have always felt no one care pray like a mother can pray!
Dusty,
I too had that type of experience with my daughter. When she was 15 - 16, my daughter was making some very poor choices. In addition to those poor choices, her ex b/f was stalking her. He tampered with her car, stole her dog, etc. Yet, she felt she could save him from his problems so she continued to try to be his friend. I prayed constantly asking for guidance with this situation and asking Him to keep her safe. He kept my daughter safe. Thankfully, I was the one driving the car when the wheel flew off. Late one evening after another difficult argument with her, I took a walk to calm down. We have a small pond and I was walking by the pond and I prayed again. This time, I told God that I'm sure He had answered me but that I was just too upset to hear it and would He just send me some sort of burning bush type of answer like He did to Moses (one that I couldn't help but hear). That night, I woke up and just knew the answer. I knew that my daughter wouldn't like it and would be mad at me but that was it. God simply reminded me that I'm the parent and that I had the right to set down the limits. I had to insist that she not have any contact with this boy at all - not even a hello in the halls at school. I spoke with his grandma and pointed out to her that he couldn't be learning if he spent all his time worrying about my DD nor could DD learn. So grandma and I both went to the vice-principal and spoke with him. We each spoke with our kids that night. They were so angry at us. They felt that we were over-stepping our bounds. We went and spoke with the vice-principal the next day and he agreed to assist us with this while they were on school property. DD was livid. Ex b/f was raging.
By the time Sunday morning came around, I was ready to hang it up but when I got to Sunday School, guess what the lesson was about. How do you when you are doing what God wants? First of all, it pointed out that it's usually not the easy way out. Okay, I definitely met that one. Second of, God would send us signs to reassure us. Okay, the Sunday School lesson was definitely a sign. But the last page of that lesson was an even bigger lesson as it talked about Moses and the Burning Bush! I left that church more convinced than ever that I was doing what was in my DD's best interest.
She has since told me that she understands why I did what I did. She will never ever admit to me that I was right but she did suggest the same tact to a friend that was having a similar problem. Her friend's mom told me that my DD explained that after a break-up it is best to have some time completely apart to learn to deal with all the past hurts and emotions. Then later on, you will better be equipped to be friends with your ex. DD and her ex speak occassionally now and he knows that she is a friend but can't be his g/f.
My point is I had to reach a certain point of desperation before I was willing to hear God's solution. I think maybe you had reached that point as well. It's sad that we as humans are that way. I must admit though that I've learned from this and I try hard to look for those signs from God now!
If you have any of that money left over, you might want to donate a little to your favorite charity - just a small gift to thank Him!