Third Day and counting

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Third Day and counting
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Sun, 12-07-2003 - 11:52pm
Okay, today went pretty well. I had an omelet with onions, bell peppers, mushrooms and cheese, but could only eat half of it, I got too full, some celery for a snack. (Hubby got the peanut butter out and dipped his in there since he is skinny, and I couldnt resist just one little dip, less than a teaspoon i think, but it made me so happy lol), I boiled a chicken breast for lunch, and made steak and zuchinni/summer squash for dinner.

Now Im getting ready to go to work from midnight to 8am. This will be a huge test and a long night becuase everyone spends the night eating pizza, deep fried foods, cappucinnos etc from the 24 hour convenience store! That and Im already so tired. I hate being up for 24 hours!!!

Anyway, I will just keep toodling along. Your posts are all so encouraging. I don't know what I'd do without you guys.

Truly,

Amy

Phase 1/ Day 3

245/242/160

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Registered: 10-01-2003
Mon, 12-08-2003 - 8:30am

Hi Amy,


Don't deny yourself of the peanut butter.

       

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Registered: 03-21-2003
Mon, 12-08-2003 - 11:17am
I'm curious to hear how work went with the cravings.
MelMel
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Mon, 12-08-2003 - 4:03pm
OK, I am totally ready to cry. Once I got to work last night I realized that I had forgotten the lunchsack that I had thoughtfully packed to get me through the nightshift. Since I had been up so long, I knew from experience that if Ididnt eat I would be so shaky I would barely be able to walk, let alone concentrate. Everybody ordered from the convenience store and I ended up eating a pizza pocket and an eggroll!!!

No I feel the the first 3 days were a total waste. My stress level is through the roof and I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

To top it off, I FINALLY got to go to bed, but the phone wouldnt stop ringing. Thelast call was a bill collector for an ER visit where the doctor sent me for a CAT scan which I told him BEFORE he drugged me I didnt want because I'd already had one and theyd found nothing. The lady was SO rude, and here I am half asleep after being up over 24 hours and then only getting a couple hours of sleep. She asked where I work, and I didnt want to tell her (since Im the sole support for my family) and she got hateful about me not wanting to cooperate. Up to that point I had been very honest. How dare someone threaten me and try to tell me MY motivations when they've never known me outside of those 5 minutres on the phone!!!! (Sorry Im venting)

I just feel so out of sorts and overwhelmed today. Sorry to sound like such a panytwaist!

Truly,

Amy

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Registered: 10-29-2003
Tue, 12-09-2003 - 10:44am

Amy, I'm sorry to hear you had such an awful day yesterday.

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Tue, 12-09-2003 - 11:01am
****So stick a note on your purse or car keys or coat so that you REMEMBER that lunch sack tonight!*****

Funny you should mention that! Guess who's car got stolen last night because her husband left the keys in the ignition? Im ready to throw myself into an erupting volcano!

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Registered: 10-31-2003
Tue, 12-09-2003 - 12:24pm
You're kidding!!!! Oh, your poor thing...you have been under a lot of stress!!! I wish there was something I could do for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts, though, kiddo!!!

Hugs,

Cyndie

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Tue, 12-09-2003 - 12:27pm

WHAT!!?? Say that again.

MelMel
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Tue, 12-09-2003 - 3:12pm
Thanks guys. I am still in such a state of shock I don't even know how to feel. It was our only vehicle and i was supposed to be going back to school in January so I could work towards my RN. The college is 60 miles away which means no school. I'm about ready to curl up in a ball under my desk and disappear.

Boy do I feel like a total whiner today. Ive decided that between the stress and being sick and working such odd hours that I just dont think I can do this right now. On top of that we are facing a serious paycut and I don't think I can afford the food I need to be eating. It really sucks that poor people are forced to eat the bad stuff just because we cant afford healthy food. It just seems cosmically wrong to me.

OK, im gonna shut up now. Sorry to be such a downer today.

Truly,

Amy

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Registered: 10-29-2003
Tue, 12-09-2003 - 3:44pm

Oh, Amy, you have every reason to be bummed out today.

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Tue, 12-09-2003 - 7:16pm
Hey Dusty,

No, Im not TOTALLY giving up, but under the circumstances I am going to just freeform for a while. Im still going to avoid most sugars and starches, no pop, etc... but with all this stress, the holidays and my birthday coming up, I decided I would be more successful to wait until later to start phase 1 again. I plan to restart on January 4th. So, no, Im not quitting per se, but i just dont think i can be successful right now and dont want to get so discouraged that I quit all together.

In the meantime, I am going to keep coming to the board and keep reading, and even posting occasionally. And I am going to keep doing my yoga in the mornings. I'll even let you hold me to what I say. Hopefully I wont be so overwhelmed in a couple of weeks, and Ill get over this horrible bug that keeps me coughing until I taste blood.

On a brighter note, we are getting our first snow of the year, so tonight I am going to pamper myself. bubble bath, wine, and a good book. Thanks for keeping me honest.

Truly,

Amy

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