Six weeks later
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Six weeks later
| Tue, 06-22-2004 - 11:08pm |
That's right, it's been almost six weeks, and my heart still aches everytime I think about him or hear his name. I can't stop hoping maybe somewhere down the line we'll get back together (LONG AFTER we become friends again... if THAT ever happens). Even now, though I can see that life DOES go on without him, I feel so alone. I've lost my very bestest friend in the whole wide world and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Though I have acres of homework to do and I MUST find a job before my ever-dwindling bank account gives out on me, he's the only one I think about...the only man I see being the father of my children...the only man I want to grow old with.

im sorry to hear you are still in pain. im at 7 weeks so i know how you feel.
but six weeks is still early days sweetheart. we know were not gonna die and that life will go on without them, but at the moment, every day is a painful struggle. theres so much to deal with. the shock of the breakup, the rejection, the loss, the loneliness.....
.....all this adds up to the hurt we are feeling now.
just take it as it comes. be gentle with yourself. i know sometimes it seems that its never gonna stop, but even you must know that one day it does.
im in a rush to get this over with too, as its the most horribly painful thing i have ever experienced. my mind also wont let me be, tormenting me, reliving every special moment we spent together, and the wonderful future that will never be.
beleive me. i know , and so does everyone else on these boards, exactly what your going through. id like to send a big virtual hug to you from us all.
try not to get to hard on yourself.
i know that everything im feeling, although its unbearable, is normal!
all the thoughts i have which sometimes rip my heart in two, well thats just my minds way of coming to terms with whats happened and its all part of the process of getting better.
your mind, body, and soul, sorting everything out for you. theres a lot to sort out so give it time. be stong and be patient.
im going through it, just like you. but i know one day i will be happy again.
and so do you.
be brave. tracy xx.