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I finally did it
| Fri, 06-25-2004 - 11:23pm |
Hey for those of you that know my story. I told him tonight that I cant deal with his games anymore. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and I cried for hours after. I feel free now though. I was finally able to take my engagment ring off without feeling ill. I hate the thought of not having him in my life but I hate the thought of hurting all the time even more. I did write him an email apologizing for being so harsh though but in no way took back what I did say. I think I did it a little too "bitchy". Its not that he doesnt deserve it but I still love him and dont want to hurt him. Why I dont wnt to hurt him I still dont knwo. Yeah I love him but he continues to call me every night and tell me he loves me but things never change. He still plays his games even though he knows he is ripping my heart out. I found another site that is a lot of help if anyone is interested .... loveshack.org. Take care everyone. Peace and Love

He told me that it wasn't physical, so it was no biggie. I wanted everything to be ok, so I let myself believe that. I burned those disgusting conversations onto a CD rom from his PC and I read them when I feel like going back to him. :)