I thought I was doing better
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I thought I was doing better
| Mon, 06-28-2004 - 3:13pm |
It's been almost 2 months, and up until Saturday night I was doing so well with the breakup. My ex and I walked to class everyday last week together (we are both taking summer classes) and I was fine with that, it was nice to see him again, but I felt I was finally over him. I was supposed to have a date with a guy that I had known a few years, but we were never friends, on Saturday night, but I got stood up, he never answered his cell or returned any of my calls so i don't even know why he never showed up. That was when I started missing my ex, becasue he used to always call me when he was going to be even 5 minutes late. Thinking that got me to thinking about all the other stuff I missed about him, and I've been depressed ever since. I left really early for class this morning so I wouldn't see him and start crying in front of him. But now it is all I can do to stop myself from picking up the phone and calling to beg him to take me back. I tried writing a letter and then tearing it up, but that didn't make me feel better, it just felt worse so i thought I'd come get support from others who feel the same way as me.
I really thought that I was doing so much better and ready to move on with my life, but I'm obviously not if some guy I barely know can make me cry this much.
I know time is the only way to feel better, but right now I really wish that I could go to sleep tonight and wake up 5 years from now and be totally over him (but then I'd probaby still be on here venting about a new guy!:)
I just wanted to share my problem, and was wondering if anybody was ever in a similar situation where they thought they were over somebody and realized they wern't, and what you did to make yourself better.
thanks for listening!
I really thought that I was doing so much better and ready to move on with my life, but I'm obviously not if some guy I barely know can make me cry this much.
I know time is the only way to feel better, but right now I really wish that I could go to sleep tonight and wake up 5 years from now and be totally over him (but then I'd probaby still be on here venting about a new guy!:)
I just wanted to share my problem, and was wondering if anybody was ever in a similar situation where they thought they were over somebody and realized they wern't, and what you did to make yourself better.
thanks for listening!
Signatures On
| Mon, 06-28-2004 - 9:02pm |
trust me, u r gonna have many of these thoughts. every week or two i think that im done, thats it no more hurting for me. and then bam here we go again with the sadness. you have to avoid him as much as possible, stop talking to him. you should try the NC its very important for u to heal. that's all i can say for now. hope u feel better soon, but just to let u know, that u r still gonna have those rollercoaster feelings, the ups and downs, it will take time to be fine again.
| Tue, 06-29-2004 - 5:35pm |
Welcome to the board!!
