He called me...
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He called me...
| Thu, 07-01-2004 - 9:21pm |
Well, he called me when I was at work today. I would have rather not have talked to him, since I had been doing so well, but I don't have caller id on my work phone and he called me direct. He called to tell me he was going out of town until next Wednesday and asked me to keep an eye on his car (his car is out of commission and it's sitting in my apartment complex parking lot). I acted very chipper as if nothing was wrong. It was a very short convo, and when I hung up I was just shocked, I guess. As I said in my previous post, we left things between us in pretty good terms... I just wasn't ready to talk to him yet. I cried on Monday night after he left from picking up his things (not at all in front of him), but then Tues and Wednes I was fine. I felt relieved not having to wonder if he was going to call me when he said, or show up when he said. I didn't even have an urge to talk to him at all. But now this. I want so badly to call him and ask if this really is it or not. Or even just email him, but I'm trying so hard not to. We both agreed that the relationship wasn't working, and I know I can't continue to be with him the way things were, but I also really want to believe things will work out between us, after all it was 3.5 years. I'm so confused... I know there is so much love between us and I don't know what to do.

Nah, I'm just kidding. That would be wrong and immature. ;) But it does bother me that after the emotional stress he has put you through, he would call and ask you to watch his car...
The balls of some men....
I think exes who are confused like to keep tabs on you. I think your ex is trying to do that too, he doesn't want to be your boyfriend, but he doesn't want to loose you either. I guess it's a natural impulse, but it leads to a lot of games. If I were you, I'd make a really sincere effort to avoid all contact with him. If he has something significant to say to you, then maybe it's worth listening, but these half-ass excuses to keep tabs on you are pretty selfish and don't help you move on. Because you're always expecting some major conversation or breakthrough to come out of it, but neither of you are in a different place than you were when you broke up. What is the point of these little encounters then, except to stir up old feelings and make you more confused and sad?