The meeting has been set

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Registered: 12-24-2003
The meeting has been set
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Tue, 07-06-2004 - 12:43am
I hope you all are around. To refresh, since I haven't posted in a while, it's been since March 26 that we last saw each other. 4 days later I started no contact and would not answer or return any of his calls until about 2 weeks ago. At that time he agreed, my terms whatever I wanted for us to talk, but of course with holidays and such, we both had plans. Now, this Saturday we are both finally going to be free to have the long talk. I find myself anxious, excited and scared to death.

I know I have to go into this with an open mind and whatever comes of it will be what we both want. But I want him back. I want us to try again. He has made lots of changes towards the positive since everything happened. I know that it may not be possible for us to work this out and that is what scares me. I'm so afraid that I'm going to fall back into all those stages again. And the thought that really bothers me is why do I feel that he's worth it to try to make it work and if we decided not to, why would he decide I'm not worth it? I need lots of support this week. I had finall quit crying myself to sleep last week but tonight when I laid down the tears just flooded out of me and now I can't stop.

From the moment I met him, my feelings were different that they had been for anyone else. The only thing I could think was that it was that feeling everyone told me that I would know. He is the one. I have no desire to be with or even look for anyone else. Ok, I'm going to stop ranting now. Just if anyone has words of advice or can just be a support to me and help me make it through until Saturday morning, I would appreciate it. He promised me that the only thing that would keep him away would be if he had to work or an emergency with his son. I hope he's telling me the truth this time.

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Registered: 01-30-2004
Wed, 07-07-2004 - 12:02am
Have you talked to him yet? I know you really love him and you feel he's the only one you've ever loved but I remember you past posts so I just want you to remember all the problems concerning the break-up.....has anything changed....do the two of you have a better chance of making things work? If you do try this again...just be careful....try not to jump to conclusions and dont' let his ex influence you again....but don't let him walk all over you either. Good luck and keep us posted!!













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Registered: 12-24-2003
Wed, 07-07-2004 - 12:39pm
Fate Sucks! Just wanted everyone to know that. I spent last night at the hospital. Our meeting took a different turn as his appendix burst yesterday morning. I had to tease him about getting his way again. I'm so torn up now. In a way this changes everything and again it changes nothing. Our BIG meeting has of course been postponed. Who would have thought after 3 and a half months of not seeing each other and only 2 weeks of contact that the first time I would see him again would be in a hospital bed? I tried so hard not to cry but that was pretty much all I did, all the way there, while I was there and all the way home again. Ok, all for now as I have to go back to work again. Trying to keep myself busy. I feel like I've backtracked 3 months but this time it's very very different