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i need to understand
| Wed, 07-07-2004 - 1:20am |
I always seem to come back here, to the post everytime i need some emotional support.
once again me and my boyfriend broke up. i pray to god that this time i have the strenghth to not go back to him no matter what. it's not meant to be and it will never work, and i know this. And this time has't been half as bad as the 2 times before in which i was unconsolable. despite the fact that i miss him and wish it had worked out and wish we could still work it out, i refuse to suffer more than i need to. However, i cant help but falling apart every now and then when i think and ask my self why wasn't i good enough for him. why couldn't he see past all his fears and insecurities and issues and give me a real chance. why coiuldn't he love me? i know that i will eventually move on and be entirely over him. hopefully it will be soon, but nothing, nothing would have made me happier than for us to have been together forever. i wouldv'e given it all up for him and why wasn't he willing to do the same for me.
i know that it's not my fault, and in a way it wan't his either. you can't rule in the heart. But how do i get over this pain i feel because i wasn't enough for him to be happy. how do i not bring my self down. How can i really understand that it's not my fault, that it's simply not meant to be. i just want to hear something that will diminish the pain a lil. i need some hope. some hope that i will find that someone who will love me and i will love back.
if anyone has any thoughts to share, you can e-mail me at Leidy101@yahoo.com too
thanks for reading
once again me and my boyfriend broke up. i pray to god that this time i have the strenghth to not go back to him no matter what. it's not meant to be and it will never work, and i know this. And this time has't been half as bad as the 2 times before in which i was unconsolable. despite the fact that i miss him and wish it had worked out and wish we could still work it out, i refuse to suffer more than i need to. However, i cant help but falling apart every now and then when i think and ask my self why wasn't i good enough for him. why couldn't he see past all his fears and insecurities and issues and give me a real chance. why coiuldn't he love me? i know that i will eventually move on and be entirely over him. hopefully it will be soon, but nothing, nothing would have made me happier than for us to have been together forever. i wouldv'e given it all up for him and why wasn't he willing to do the same for me.
i know that it's not my fault, and in a way it wan't his either. you can't rule in the heart. But how do i get over this pain i feel because i wasn't enough for him to be happy. how do i not bring my self down. How can i really understand that it's not my fault, that it's simply not meant to be. i just want to hear something that will diminish the pain a lil. i need some hope. some hope that i will find that someone who will love me and i will love back.
if anyone has any thoughts to share, you can e-mail me at Leidy101@yahoo.com too
thanks for reading

I sent you an email with an attachement. Be sure to read it when you are not rushed, and carefully. It really helped me and even after one day i feel so much better and stronger.
Mel