a sure sign i'm doing better...

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Registered: 05-10-2004
a sure sign i'm doing better...
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Thu, 07-08-2004 - 12:59am
I have a full-on, from the gut CRUSH!!! Not a trying to convince myself I like someone to snap out of my ex, not a casual "oh he's kind of cute," but a stomach dropping to the floor every time I see him kind of CRUSH!!

This must mean I'm doing better. I had no interest in anyone but my ex for a very very long time. Having this sort of reaction to a guy is the best feeling in the world, I feel alive finally! I am a sexual being! The focus of this crush is not relationship material by any stretch of the imagination, he is quite a bit younger than me and a badass. but damn he's hot. mmm. i would totally be down for a summer fling w/ him, though i think he has a girlfriend. whatever i don't care, i just like looking at him and feeling that flutter in my stomach every time he's near. it's like medicine to feel like that, after all the f***ed up drama w/ my ex.

the absolute BEST part, the most delicious thing about all this is that he is on my bowling league, as is my ex. And while I used to dread seeing the ex there every week, now it is wonderful because my ex is so BORING compared to this guy. He seems so old and cranky and jaded and *familiar* (in a bad way) compared to this hot friend of a friend.

Yeah I still have plenty of issues w/ my ex but it must be getting better...

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Registered: 01-07-2004
Thu, 07-08-2004 - 9:38am
I am so happy for you!!

That is a good sign when you get those feelings for another person. It means that part of you, although probably not all, has let go to the degree that you can see another man in a romantic way.

So, it's just a crush for now. See what happens.

Trust me on this though, if he does reciprocate, take it sloooooow. :)