thank you so much

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Registered: 03-28-2003
thank you so much
Fri, 07-09-2004 - 12:49am
Thank you all so much for your replies....it does make me feel better that he wrote me that..but that is him..he is 23 but acts like he's 40 sometimes..i know he cares about me. I think deep down inside though it is something else besides not loving me...2 days before that he was telling me he was the happiest he has ever been and never wants to be without me...why would he say that?

I really think the stem of the problem is this...he just graduated college, finished playing college baseball, and was feeling the pressure of moving to a new city, a city he didn't really like that muich, taking a new job, getting a place to live, getting a car, leaving his friends and family and most of all i think he felt if he moved here, that was it, he would have to marry me. That's a lot for anyone to take in let alone a 23 year old. But what gets me is why would he fly here for interviews, why did he take the job here in chicago, why didn't he tell me he was scared or pressured or confused? We would have worked things out..i would have done anything for him not to feel that and make him feel better.

I am just sad and confused..i wish he would try again..see that it's most likely just being scared.

Thank you so much again, you have no idea how much this board has helped me...

my heart is with you all. I just want him back...i want to hold him and kiss him and get concentrate on what made us fall in love in the first place.

amy