all packed why cant I leave him?

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Registered: 01-21-2004
all packed why cant I leave him?
Sun, 07-11-2004 - 9:27am
Like a lost puppy , I cant make my self leave him , my things are all packed and by the door , I keep making excusses why Im not moving today, He says nothing, and I know deep in my heart I will be happyier, whats wrong with me why cant I let go? .... I have neaver been good at break-ups, I always linger around til the guy ends up doing it all for me, I cant seem to make my self close the door, been w/ him for 2 years, yes I love him, but Im soo unhappy, We have no spark left, I just keep hoping the fun will come back but I know better, I just need words of wisdom, encouragement to be strong, Im having a terrible time letting go .....Although I know once I get over this hump , I can be happy again...why cant I just go .... It kills me that its over... he wont talk about his feelings at all w/ me so I think Im hanging on to what if he still cares and we are making a big mistake, but then again I dont want to hear him say that its over and its time to go our seperate ways....why dosnt he love me , why did I lose my self in him, Moving out of his house is the hardest thing Ive ever had to do or try to make my self do, ............ just need some encouragement to move on with my life....