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| Tue, 07-13-2004 - 3:42am |
i feel liberated, i was finally able to be completely honest to him and to myself. i was able to tell him things that ive been holding back. it was too hard to be honest with him because he would always respond with something very discouraging. so im glad that ive finally been able to be tell him so.
what makes this break up so hard after the long talk we had, was that during the time that we were discussing everything and i was being completely honest, he was REALLY listening. why do guys seem so much better during this time in a relationship.
anyway we decided to take a break, see other ppl, but after our talk, its obvious that we just cant be together.
on the drive home, boy did i start to cry. still feel like it now. i dont feel as brave and as strong as i did earlier, but i know its just really hitting me. i miss him so much already, and sometimes i doubt it was the right choice. but i know its just a phase.
ugh, i hate this part.
thanks for listening.

Bravo to you! You really are looking out for your best interest and putting yourself number one. I applaud you for that. Not a lot of people can do that. 8 yrs is a long time of course you are going to miss him and it won't go away over night either. Just keep yourself busy with things that interest you or you have always wanted to do. You know the crazy thing I always wanted to do, but my boyfriend thought was silly was a cake deocorating class. I find myself a very hip-modern type of girl, but I always wanted to do it. Now I make cakes for every special occasion and I love it! Dig down deep and find out what you want. 8 yrs. of being with someone is a long time and it will take a long time to recover. Let yourself recover by working on yourself. I'm very impressed that you were able to do this. It obviously worked itself out. Now don't go missing him so much you think of going back or getting in touch with him. Stay away for awhile until your heart begins to heal. You stay strong!
Even though I'm a distant face across a computer screen I'm so proud of you for thinking of #1........that's you!
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