Wallowing in it...
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Wallowing in it...
| Thu, 07-15-2004 - 11:18am |
I'm trying to stop wallowing the the grief and I'm trying to move on....Saturday will be four weeks...and I still feel the same amount of pain...I feel like a big baby...and I know I'm making such a big deal over something that I shouldn't...but I'm having a real hard time just picking it up and moving it on....now I'm finding myself sleepy all the time...even during the day at work...despite sleeping all night...I still can't concentrate and the knot it my stomach is at tight as ever...I feel like I'm in a ZONE or a funk and I can't get out of it. I try to do stuff...but I just am so tired of making myself do it...I dont know what to do.

I really wish you would change your name, because again you will not always be alone. You sound deeply depressed, you mentioned that you had been going to a therapist, what did she have to say about it? Do you have any pets? (NOT A FISH EITHER) I'm telling you after my break up with my ex my little dog was the only thing that got me out of bed. He knew I was sad and would just come lay on me or he would do something so funny. I would really suggest looking into getting a pet. Also, what is a deep desire you have always wanted to do? Take a kickboxing class, work out more, go sky diving, paint your apartment. Make up your mind to do it and DO IT.
You need to focus on making yourself well depression is very serious. Laying in bed or sleeping all the time is wasting your life away. Trust me you don't want to do that. I'm sorry you hurt so bad and trust me I understand how it feels, but you don't want to get so bad into a deep depression that when it is time for you to meet someone else you can't. I'd really focus on some of the things I listed above.
It is going to be ok I promise! Time heals all wounds.
April