the bike story

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Registered: 06-19-2004
the bike story
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Wed, 07-21-2004 - 9:55am
I dont know what I should do...!

We split up a week ago, we agreed that we wouldnt have any contact at all anymore but then last week my bike broke and I needed it for my work. He has 2 bikes so after a lot of thinking I sent him an email to ask if I could borrow the bike for a week, I really hated doing this but there was no option...anyway, he said: no problem and as soon as he finished work he cycled the bike to my place and we said...hi, how are you .....fine..

i said to him that he looked good and he said to me that iI looked good (not true: I had stress spots!!!AAAAAH) Anyway...then he left running back to his place (quite nice of him, its about 45 minutes if not more) and he said: see you next week then, when I get the bike...

So, tomorrow is that day, a week and a half later, he needs it back for familyvisitors, its fine by me BUT............

In a way I woud love to see him, I am in love with him still, but also I am starting to manage without him just a bit better...I dont have the urge to phone or email him all the time anymore so I think it would be better not to see him anymore. So what I was thinking was to bring the bike to his place myself, when I know he is still at work and then leave a thank you note with it. But on the other side I would love to see him again!!!!!!!!!

Its probaly also the last time cos maybe he's moving to England in August (We live in the Netherlands, he's Italian, me Dutch).

I dont want to miss the change that he sees me and then thinks, wow I missed her, I want her again, but maybe thats just wishfull thinking?

What shall I do???

I would appreciate your advice big time!!!
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Registered: 06-19-2004
In reply to: samie2004
Thu, 07-22-2004 - 7:00am
ok, well I am back to being really stupid, I emailed him yesterday and today, what stupid of me, no reaction yet, but I'm sure it will come soon.

The emails are to ask him if he wants to be friends and do things together. I came on this idea from Nikolina. Anyway, sh*t...I feelquite bad about it though because he is still sort of playing games in a way I feel...And thats why it feels like I'm back to square one. Please...I just want to be normal again, he really is f*cking me up, I never had anyone who irritated me and yet I feel much love for at the same time....

I am gonna bring the bike back now....leave it at his place outside (he is at work)

Samie, the stupid girl

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Registered: 06-19-2004
In reply to: samie2004
Thu, 07-22-2004 - 8:17am
Ok, he is coming tonight to get the bike himself.....aaaaaaaaaah i'm so irritated by the whole thing, it gives me headaches
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Registered: 06-21-2004
In reply to: samie2004
Thu, 07-22-2004 - 9:01am
I would suggest calling him saying you're going to be out (I don't usually advocated lying, but sometimes you have to) and that you can drop it off at his place the next day. Everytime that I've been around my Ex it has made everything worse. We both have feelings for eachother but he is not mature enough for me. I would strongly advise against seeing him. Plus this puts the power back in your hands. Good luck!