should i let go?
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| Sat, 10-09-2004 - 12:50am |
he is very mature for his age very hardworking and responsible he has dreams and ambitions...but for some reason is not working out like 3 weeks ago we argued so hard i told him it was over but since i dont have a place to go i have to stay here and i told him we would have to play roommates he would have to cook his own food buy his own food and do his laundry buy his won detergent etc etc....we decided to remain friends lord knows what would we do living in the same household and acting like strangers is a very uncomfortable situation so he agreed but that night he couldnt sleep he tossed nad turned and around 3 am he woke me up to talk he told me we should give it another try i was very hesitant i figured it wont work if it came to this it wont work i had plenty of relationships that i dont look back to when is over is over thats it but i decided to give it another shot we did discussed thte fact that if it didint work we were not to mention that night and lament about give it another try.
well everything was peaches and cream....until last night....he went into my place of work and told me somebody had taken his coins...i had no idea what he was talking about...i asked him what coins he told me some coins my grandad gave me b4 he died mind u i never knew of these coins existance until last night he them told me if my coins dont come up u and ur kids have to go when u get home look for the coins if u cant find them is a wrap u have to go..........yes shocker!!!the coins were in a box he was so blinded so upset he didnt see them...it hurted me so bad my chest feels like is going to explode then he called to apologize and we started arguing and i told him is not working this isnt going anywhere is best we remain roomates u do u and i do me...because he had told me he was going to do him b4 anything and i told him if u r going to do u do u completely wash your own clothes buy your own detergent cook ur own food buy ur own food...then he told y do we have to do that we r still in the same house when i say i wil do me i meant i will work come home sleep (he works nights which is another issue)and do what i have to do to survive...i insisted it wasnt going to work and i told him u do u and i will do me and my kids so he hung up....he never came home today...until 8 pm.
then he told me is better off that way if thats the way i want it thats the way it will be he now knows what we have to do we have to let go and move on until we r ready for this relationship because he is not and he feels im not....he said he did a lot of thinking after he hung up and he figured if i said all those things i must have meant them i told him i said them off of anger but he said is been said it will be done and since u want it that way it will be that way i told him he asked 4 it he wanted it that way he said not but now since i said is going to be that way....im a bit confused is he playing hard to get is he sending me subliminal messages does he want me to beg him to start over to give us a chance does he want out 4 real or what??? should i let go??????
