Why can't I hate him?????

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Registered: 01-14-2005
Why can't I hate him?????
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Tue, 02-15-2005 - 3:02pm
Well, it is the day after valentines day. I haven't talked to my ex since Sunday. We had been doing real well for the past few weeks and then I just couldn't take it any more. I had been staying at his house occasionally and stuff. Super bowl sunday i went out with some friends from work and ended up sleeping with one of my bosses. I can't lie to my ex so I told him on Monday. He was so hurt, he cried and cussed. Well he said he never wanted to see me again. So I wasn't calling him. I told him what was fair about him seeing someone and I cant go out with anyone. He says that I was the one who was saying that we were suppossed to be together and all this bs. and yes I do feel like he is the one I am suppossed to be with, but he says he can't be back in a relationship with me right now, but he doesn't know what tomorrow will bring. i told him Saturday night that I couldn't do this anymore. We had such a good night. He told me he was tired of hurtin me and that he did still love me. That a few weeks ago he had his gf waiting on him and all he can always think about is me. I miss him so much especially now that we aren't speaking. I got him a valentines present and 2 cards. I didn't even get wished a happy valentines day. I just don't know what to do anymore. Im still sorta seeing my boss but he has a gf too. This is soo not good. I feel like trash, bc I'm doing to that poor girl what the b*&#h did to me when she was cheating with my ex. I am so confused. He says he hates me bc he sees the person I have become since I've stopped taking those pills, and it is the person he fell in love with 3 years ago. he says too many bridges have been burned. I have never been so hurt or confused in all my life. I love him so much and evidently this girl does something for him that I can't. he says that I have no idea what Im talking about, he just can't explain anything to me. Why can't I hate him
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Registered: 01-30-2004
Thu, 02-17-2005 - 11:22pm
You can't hate him because you still love him and you still have that hope of getting back together with him!!
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