Contemplation
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| Wed, 02-16-2005 - 7:47pm |
Something odd happened at work today that I would like to throw out for general discussion.
A co-worker, who hasn't worked a full week since New Year, called in this morning (it was alcohol related). I was the only one in the office, and subsequently the building, so I had to take it. He knew that I was going to give him a difficult time and demand that he come in. In our discussion back and forth, he jokingly commented, "I've known you for 14 years, and I know you love me." I snapped back, "Since when have my feelings become an excuse for your bad actions?"
For the rest of the day, I examined my past relationships to see how I allowed my feeling to become an excuse for the other's bad action. My feelings of insecurities "excused" an hubby's abuse in marriage, and, later, my fear of being alone "excused" the alcoholic frenzy in another relationship. Even the most recent one was a matter of my love excusing his aloofness. I am now aware that my feelings are not an excuse if I do not allow them to be. My feelings are my very own, created by me and for me. They cannot be used by or for anyone else.
Would anyone care to contemplate their navel on this one?
Mimiche
| Thu, 02-17-2005 - 11:04pm |
