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3 weeks!
| Sat, 02-19-2005 - 11:13am |
Wow, it's been 3 weeks since I broke up with my ex. I know that's not a whole lot of time, but man am I proud b/c I thought I would never even make it *this* far without...crumbling into dust or something equally melodramatic. As far as no contact is concerned, well, it's only been a week since the last time we talked (when I told him to leave me alone) but even though it's still a day by day project I know that I can continue to do this. Actually, as much as I pine for him, I'm petrified of actually one day getting back in touch with him b/c I am scared to death of going through the worst kind of hurt all over again (thank you, but no, I do not feel like having my heart tossed in a blender over and over again...by the same guy no less). All in all, I think I'm doing pretty well--all things considered.

Good for you....
I'm in a similar 'boat' of sorts. It's been 10 days since I told my boyfriend that we both need time to think things over....and he needs time to get himself some help. He emailed me the next day, letting me know that he thinks I'm right and we haven't been in contact since. I know it's the end. It hurts to think I'll never hear from him again, because I'd be shocked if he contacted me.
I am, also, doing better than I expected.
I hope you continue to do well with your situation.
I think that makes it easiest for me to not contact him is the fact that I always felt like the initiator in the relationship. I did 90% of the work and he always went along with it. It makes me feel good knowing that he must be wondering why I'm not contacting him. It also helps me to know that not seeing or contacting him is helping my healing process.
I have a feeling he won't contact me. It seems very odd to know that I just may never see him again....really having no closure.