Smiling Again
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| Mon, 03-14-2005 - 9:37am |
"I woke up this morning with a smile on my face" - a line from one of Christina Aguilara's (sp) songs. One of my favorite right now actually. Because for the first time in months I woke up this weekend smiling. I realized the hell I have been through to get past the heart ache of losing my best friend and soul mate. I have fought through the storm of him coming back to me, scared and lonely and confused. I have celebrated in knowing that for once I can say no to him and tell him that he can't make me happy until he is happy. It has been the hardest battle that I have ever fought and part of me is still fighting and will always be. But at least I can wake up smiling and say I am strong, I am happy. I have learned so much from my ex. I have learned so much from this break up, that I know the next time I come to heart break I will make it through. And I will be even stronger for the next one. It's an incredible feeling the moment you realize that you are going to be okay, and that life goes on without him. I can smell the rain now and watch the sunset without crying and wondering if he is seeing and feeling the same thing. I still think of him every day, but when I do I pray that he is finding happiness, and that he is okay. I am a better person now and I know more of myself because of him, so I can give him that.
So here's a note to everyone that is just beginning the long journey to recovery: You are strong, whether you realize it now or not, you are beautiful without him telling you; and one day you too will be able to watch the sunset or enter a restaurant full of his memories and smile because you made it through. Keep your head up and remember to seek your own happiness now.
Anna

Anna...
The only word Pianoguy can add to your lovely post is......AMEN!
PG