Emotional Yo-Yo
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Emotional Yo-Yo
| Sat, 11-19-2005 - 5:52pm |
I've read so many of the posts to this board and see myself in so many. Like so many others, I want a quick fix to erase this tremendous pain and disappointment. There seems to be NO solace from it. I have a nice home, an aspiring career, and 2 beautiful children. Yet, as a result of a break up from an emotionally abusive marriage, I feel broken inside. I think it would be more bearable if I could crawl into a corner and sulk......for at least a month. How can I? I have 2 chidren, an 18 year old son in college and a 6 year old daughter.Both needing me in so many ways.I love my children dearly.As a result,I am determined to hold onto whatever meager strength that I can find within myself. This relationship has been a proverbial yo-yo for 6 years. We appear to be doing okay when all of sudden, there is a small eruption that results in another permanent break up.This last break up appears to be real....I guess. I don't understand why I continue to put myself and family through this agony. Perhaps someone out there has lived the answer.

Thank goodness the yo yo stops for the kids...they cannot see Mom like this anymore. They deserve a Mom who has serenity and peace so their lives are rich and whole. What terrible vibes they must feel when the yo yo goes up and down. I should know, I left a terrible situation in 2000 for my kid. I didn't love myself enough to end it for me but I did for her..I realized she deserved MORE from me and I was her role model.
Best of luck..the pain is horrid..but it's time to end things..just think when is enough enough?