You have to believe!
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| Sun, 11-20-2005 - 5:55pm |
Hi,
I have been reading many of your post and I too am suffering from a broken heart. But I just know that we have to believe that this pain we are going thru is necessary for our own personal growth.
My fiance and I have known each other for 7 years and engaged for 1 1/2 years. Although, our relationship at the current moment looks bleak, I have to believe that it can surpass and we can once again unite. Maybe not on my time, but the universes time. We were brought together for a reason and that reason was not to end up hating each other. I believe we have known each other in our past life and united again in this life.
I am a strong believer of Karma. It is our karma that we met and were together. It is also our karma that there was is so much pain. Therefore, I believe for either one of us to move forward we need to change our karma in this relationship. Otherwise it carries on to your next and next unless you change it.
Our relationship may never be the same but at least if we are able to sit down cordially talk and discuss the details of the why's or the what if's we can both come up with an agreement. This is where you begin to change your karma. At this point, I have made attempts to contact him to discuss talking out matters. I told him that this is in no way to pressure him to come back but to at least come away with Open Eyes.
Well with many prayers and beliefs, I am waiting for his reply to open dialogue.
Many prayers for your sufferings.

You are welcome so much.
I truly believe that you have to believe in love.
Update: This morning, I went over to the ex's house just to drop his camera off to him. I figured I would rather drop it now than later while my feelings are still raw. My plan was just to drop it off on his front porch in a planter and email him that I did that and tell him where. But to my luck, as soon as I pulled up he was coming out and saw me. I couldn't just drive away. I got out of my car and walked up to him and said I am sorry I was just going to leave your camera on your front porch and email you where I put it. But since you are here, here you go. I felt at first alittle coldness from him and I struggled not to get emotional but I stayed strong. He cooled down and I found an opportunity to tell him that I hope we will both be friend oneday. He said he didn't know and I said okay. We talked alittle more small stuff and small story short, he ended up saying that he would try and be my friend. Well, that was good enough for me.
Anyway, I went online and found a good online book that uplited my spirits. Go to www.unityville.com This is a good book about "How to prevent a breakup". But although this book sounds like a desperate approach of how to get your lover back, it really isn't. It really teaches you how to get you back. It says "If you think your nothing, why would your boyfriend want nothing." Makes sense to me. It is a good suggested book. So far seems pretty good.
Anyway, as the day progressed, I texted my ex to tell him thank you for trying. Usually he ignores me but he wrote me back and said your welcome and we ended up texting for a short while about some small stuff. Well so far, like I said in my original post, I have hoped that we can have dialogue. Just this small dialogue made me feel so much better. I don't feel like it has to be a goal together. I just think when we had this coldness toward each other that hurt more than not being together. But now I feel I can start to healing process and really work on me.
Thank you so much for reading my post. I really hope that this post brought just a little hope for you.
Happy Thanksgiving.
Solful