Ex Boyfriend now has Ad on Personals
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| Mon, 11-21-2005 - 11:01am |
Hi everyone,
It's been a VERY LONG time since i've posted here. I think my last post was in early August or so. It's now November, and my life has been a total rollercoaster. I started a new job in August while at the same time trying to get over my break-up with my ex. I dont know if any of you remember me, but long story short, my ex was addicted to painkillers, I stayed with him while he sought treatment from a doctor, got clean, and then he broke up with me saying "the spark is gone" and "there's no chemistry for him with me anymore"... Well, it took a LONG time for me to get over this, I went through a period of denial where I went to his house uninvited, kept calling him, etc., but i'm finally over that stage now. It's extra difficult because he lives around the corner from me and we work on the same street too, so I see him on the road a lot. That makes it even worse.
Anyway, i've been doing a lot better in the way of getting over him, until just this morning when I was online and even though i'm not joined with yahoo personals anymore, they keep sending me my weekly matches. Well, I opened up the email just out of curiousity as to why they keep sending them, and who do I see as one of my matches? My ex... I dont know why, but seeing that he has a profile on there just shook me, made my heart jump and made me want to cry. He said he didn't want anything serious with anyone at this point in his life. I know he was seeing people after me, he told me he didn't want a girlfriend, so as I understood it he was hooking up with girls, but as for me, the person he once was planning on marrying he said, all he wanted with me was a friendship, which I said I couldn't give him because I have feelings for him.
Anyway, I just thought I was doing ok until I saw that personal ad of his this morning and it just really made me feel so bad... I feel like i'm gonna be ok, I just feel like crap again now...
~Jacki

hi jacki, it really sucks, i know. it's just awful when you've made progress, and you're overall feeling better, than something like this happens..i've been there. but ofcourse it's perfectly normal to feel like crap right now after seeing his personal ad. and although you're feeling bad right now, you're not where you were before, now are you? maybe we need things like this to "interupt" our healing to remind us as to how far along we really have come. just a thought.
i went through the same thing too. my sister was the one who actually came accross my ex's personal's ad/page. when she told me about it, my heart just sank. i don't know why i wanted to torture myself, but i asked her to show me his page/ad..when i saw it, it was torture, especially because the pics he had posted on his page were pic's taken when we were together. you're definately not alone.
take care.