I didn't think it could get harder
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I didn't think it could get harder
| Sat, 12-03-2005 - 1:18pm |
My hubby and i were married for only 5 months and now its the end. This is both our second marriages. I knew things were going to change after we got married. Thats life. But this is so dramatic. Never has he hit me, but the mental abuse is harder then i could ever imagine. I know that i did nothing wrong. He has even told me so. but he has asked two women out on a date, and one to find out he has been having an affair. I hate this. I hate it cause part of me still loves him. He was " The One " you know. Or so i thought. 2 months ago i would have died for him but now as of last night i left him. He threatened to move 5 hours away cuz he's happier there. I told him don't let the door hit ya where the good lord split ya. Sorry if i can't say that but i know that i can't swear so i had to say it as nice as i could here. If i say anything wrong someone will just have to let me know cuz i'm new to this. So if i offend anyone i'm sorry. I'm also not in the right frame of mind right now. I haven't slept at all and am running on 4 hours of sleep in 48 hours. cuz i also have 2 kids from previous and my son was up with croup the other night. So if i ramble i'm also sorry. I know that this is all stupid to write on here. but i guess i do need someone to talk to right now who i going through this cuz lord only knows that i'm not the only one. This is something i would never wish upon my worse enemy and i'm sorry for anyone else who is dealing with this right now. My prayers are with you and may god give you the strength to be strong
Melissa
Melissa

Welcome Melissa...
I'm so sorry you're going through a rough time right now... everyone here has been through it and we know how you're feeling - so you came to the right place!
If your husband is cheating and threatening to move, then the best thing do to for now is to let it go, as hard as it is. You deserve to have someone who will treat you wonderfully. Don't be so hard on yourself for still being in love with him ... you believed in your relationship with him and there's nothing wrong with that.
Please feel free to come here and vent as often as you want! Don't worry about rambling ... it's just helps to get those feelings out, doesn't it? I truly hope visiting here will help you feel at least a little better.
{{{HUG}}}
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Melissa-
Nothing you said was stupid. You are grieving for a lost dream. I am so sorry that you are so sad. I will pray for you...hope your little one is better. Sometimes when it rains, it pours...Love to you...Donna