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| Wed, 12-21-2005 - 11:32pm |
well,
for the first time since the end of nov. my ex tried to contact me. he texted me and said, "sorry i am texting you, but i just wanted to see if i could call you yet." (i cut it off because he just wanted to be friends and talk every now and then, and it wasnt working, because it messed with my mind and we always ended up sleeping together, and i told him not to contact me for awhile) DONT WORRY, i didnt respond. but i am mad at myself because i was excited and happy that he contacted me when i shouldnt be! i should be focusing on getting over him and having a new better life without him. instead i started fantisizing him trying to call me and getting back together with me....sigh. sometimes i feel like im ready to move on, but the past couple days, like today, i just feel like i'll never be able to get over him...
i also found out that IF i do have to be in gainesville for new years, because of work, this boy that i have dated a little bit will be there and he told me to call him if i came into town. so i feel a little better about that. at least i could get a new years kiss. haha.
but we all know who i REALLY want a new years kiss from, and i wish i didn't still feel that way, esp. after all he's put me through with this breakup! very frusterating!
