day 7 of NC - hardest day yet!
Find a Conversation
| Sun, 03-25-2007 - 11:39pm |
So here I am...trying to go to fall asleep, but I feel restless. I keep replaying the break up in my mind and my chest just hurts more and more. He broke up with me a week ago, and up until now I've been sort of okay with it. Well, I did have my occasional crying episodes...but I never missed him THIS much!!
I just wish so badly that he would call me and leave a message so I could hear his voice. Or even a text message just to know that he was thinking about me like I am about him. Is he hurting like I am? Does he miss me as I badly as I miss him? Does he regret his decision for ending it with me? These questions are plaguing my mind...but ultimately I know the answers to these questions. But why do I keep holding on the hope that he would come around, realize his mistake and call me? I know I wouldn't answer it, because I promised myself I would last the 60 days...but I just wish I could have the satisfaction of knowing that he is thinking of me too!!!
My birthday is in 2 days and I wonder if he is going to wish me a happy birthday...I know that it's supposed to be a very happy day for me, and I am definitely going to wear a smile on my face when I meet my girlfriends for our get together...but i know that he is going to be on my mind the whole night...(I really wish he didn't break it off with me so close to my birthday haha...spending it without him really sucks!)
Thanks for listening to me...I really just needed to get this off my chest...
--co5mogirl

Hi co5mogirl,
Everything you feel is better.
Hi co5mogirl
First of all well done for making it 7 days..im only on day 2 after after starting over a zillion times.
Everything you feel is normal as i feel all of it as well. Im constantly wondering what he is thinking and feeling, its driving me mad. I keep waking up in the middle of the night having dreamt about him yet again. I wonder if he has dreams about me?! urg i hate this...
I imagine things for the first month are torture but take solace that you are heading in the right direction!