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| Mon, 04-02-2007 - 6:05pm |
Hello all,
Well its 3 weeks since me and my ex broke up and honestly, its still very, very hard. First 10 days we had no contact at all, then he started e-mailing, calling and texting...which sucked cause I swear I was doing better. The break up was his idea because "he isnt ready" but why all this after the break up. We talked last week a few times and he keeps on telling me how he is half empty and how this has been the hardest thing on him. Sure, it is hard but whats the point of telling all of this to a girl you broke up with. He keeps on talking about this "greater presence" that he believe will bring us together. One thing that I am very proud of is not seeing him at all after we broke up. Its hard because I so miss him, but I think that we would just be us again and we would be back together a day later, which honestly is not somethnig either one of us should want. I keep on reminding him that this all happened for a reason and I truly do hope that he needs to get his mind together before we can ever be anything ever again. The last time we talked was on Friday night...very hard breaking, we need to stay strong, bla bla. We both said no calling, seeing or anything. The funny thing is that he is one of those macho dudes and he wont ever admit of feelings or emotions at all. He has admited that he has been checking my myspace page a whole whole lot just to get a glimpse. Why??? He broke up with me, why do we need this now? Anyway, he never logs into myspace...and now he is on, on the weekends too. I know that its up to me to decide what I can allow and what I cant....this is the guy that I truly care for and is awesome, but than again HE BROKE UP WITH ME !!!
Ugh.....I guess I just dont get him.
Well its 3 weeks since me and my ex broke up and honestly, its still very, very hard. First 10 days we had no contact at all, then he started e-mailing, calling and texting...which sucked cause I swear I was doing better. The break up was his idea because "he isnt ready" but why all this after the break up. We talked last week a few times and he keeps on telling me how he is half empty and how this has been the hardest thing on him. Sure, it is hard but whats the point of telling all of this to a girl you broke up with. He keeps on talking about this "greater presence" that he believe will bring us together. One thing that I am very proud of is not seeing him at all after we broke up. Its hard because I so miss him, but I think that we would just be us again and we would be back together a day later, which honestly is not somethnig either one of us should want. I keep on reminding him that this all happened for a reason and I truly do hope that he needs to get his mind together before we can ever be anything ever again. The last time we talked was on Friday night...very hard breaking, we need to stay strong, bla bla. We both said no calling, seeing or anything. The funny thing is that he is one of those macho dudes and he wont ever admit of feelings or emotions at all. He has admited that he has been checking my myspace page a whole whole lot just to get a glimpse. Why??? He broke up with me, why do we need this now? Anyway, he never logs into myspace...and now he is on, on the weekends too. I know that its up to me to decide what I can allow and what I cant....this is the guy that I truly care for and is awesome, but than again HE BROKE UP WITH ME !!!
Ugh.....I guess I just dont get him.

I understand your frustration, my ex boyfriend did a lot of confusing things immediately after he broke up with me.
Think of it this way, what do you think you deserve? Do you deserve someone who can't really make up their mind and make a commitment and who strings you along because they can't resolve their own issues and conflicts? Or do you deserve someone who is 100% sure they are willing to put the same dedication and effort into a relationship that you are? I think we all deserve the latter.
I for one, would have been willing to try anything to make it work with my ex, but he's not willing to put forth the same effort, and that's unfair and is only going to hurt me. I believe that a relationship between two people, even a friendship, can never work if both parties aren't committed to at least TRYING to keep the relationship alive and healthy. I wish us both luck, it sounds like you are looking at this the right way. If he really wanted to be with you, he would make the effort.
He can't be that awesome to hurt you this much. He is diregarding your feelings and emotions by reeling you in just to let you down. A man that is worth hanging on to will respect your feelings at almost all times. Just remember what you deserve... Don't settle for anything less..
Kat
www.saveakat.com
I know I will be ok, with him or without him. Its just that healing process...its hard.