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| Sun, 04-08-2007 - 8:13pm |
Ugh, where do I start? B and I met over five years ago. He was married at the time, seperated and went through a divorce. During the seperation he and I became friends, and eventually started to date. We were together 3 years. After we split up, we kept in occasional, random contact. We morphed into weak friends I suppose. Anyway, after I found myself pregnant from a casual fling, I told B the next time we saw each other and he broke out in tears, crying because it wasn't his baby. Throughout the pregnancy he and I talked and he offered emotional support when I needed it and even sugggested I move in with him when things got really bad. I stopped to see him back in December with my son, and he confessed he was still in love with me and wanted us to be back together. We spent the next few weeks dating and enjoying our time together. I went back home after the holidays, we kept in contact, talked nightly, both shared how we'd never stopped caring for each other and felt a large part of our lives was missing since not being together.
He did nearly all of the pursuing, wanted me to come and live with him with my son and go to school while he took care of us, etc. Very real and deep offfers and conversations. Anyway, I saw him over spring break, and my son and I stayed with him. We had some issues, the main one being with my son's father, but I thought we ended the week knowing that it would be tough, but we could do it. Now today, after a week of avoidance (I've been back home for three weeks) he tells me he can't do it and we're really totally 100% over and done.
*sigh*
to be honest, there is a HUGE part of me who is hoping that this summer when I move back there and I'm around more that he will start to feel differently and be willing to go back to the casual dating we originally planned on.
The other part of me is PISSED and just never wants to talk to him again and wants to erase him completely from my life.
I've decided to give everything a few weeks, fight the rollercoaster I'm about to find myself on, not talk to him (HA!) and then email/contact him a week or so before I move back to the area and see how he and I want to handle being around each other. I guess I'm hoping if I dont talk to him at all he'll miss me and then want to see me when I get there and things will slowly morph back to how they "should" be.
Thanks for letting me join. Hopefully I'll be able to get my head on straight and stop taking this so hard. :(
Sarah



Hi maverickmommy and welcome to the board,
There is lots of good support here.