One month on...
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| Sun, 04-15-2007 - 2:51pm |
Hi all
Its been a month already since we broke up i cant believe it! It feels as if i only saw him yesterday. Im in a mixed mood right now, very sad of course but when i shudder of the memory of the state i was in at the time, i think ive made good progress.
i miss him very much, the weather here in the UK has been fab this weekend (we brits do get exicted by a tad of sunshine!) so it irritates me we're not enjoying it together. Next week is gonna be tough as its his birthday the same day as my best friend- ill be celebrating with her of course, and im not gonna contact him. It will be hard though. Im not ignoring it out of spite i just feel its a slippery slope as ive done nc for 3 weeks now and its only gonna hurt me even more.
I think he'll be surprised not to hear from me buts probs relieved as well, i guess he sees his birthday as a fresh start. I wish i didnt feel the guilt of it though. I just think if i did send a messsage, even just an innocent recognition of the day it will make me look weak, like ive been hanging around to do it as an excuse.
I find not hearing from him harder than not contacting him myself. I guess in his mind he has moved on :(
Im now trying to do the same :)
