Saw his profile on Myspace

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Registered: 10-25-2007
Saw his profile on Myspace
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Fri, 12-28-2007 - 11:05am

I'm feeling pretty dumb and pathetic this morning. I don't want to but its just hard not to....


Last night I finally broke the urge of seeing his profile on myspace and well I started to cry. I cried because I miss him, although its been almost 3 months after the break up i'm still missing him. I saw his pics and he looks so good so happy and it just got to me. I felt like he is winning, like we are in this competition on who's getting better faster and i'm really far behind and he's almost at the finish line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


What really hit me hard was the fact that he is moving on (but he's still single)

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Registered: 01-24-2007
Fri, 12-28-2007 - 12:18pm

omg...you

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Registered: 02-23-2005
Fri, 12-28-2007 - 2:19pm
Not sure if this will make you feel better or not, but I've taken loads of pics since my ex dumped me three months ago, and I "look" happy in most, and I'm actually happy in a lot. I was at my xmas party and having fun, in Hawaii and having fun, on my b-day having fun. The thing is, the pain is insurmountable sometimes and just because one moment of happiness was captured in one picture, does not mean he hasn't gone through a lot of pain. But do try and resist going back to check on his profile.

 

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Registered: 10-25-2007
Fri, 12-28-2007 - 2:29pm

Thanks for the replies.


I do appreciate what you guys are saying. I keep telling myself that I am good and i'm getting better but it hurts me so much to think that is he so cold with me... He never called me and I feel like I was spoiled milk, quickly thrown away....


I'm remembering that on the day of the breakup, he told me that he was expecting an 'i hate you reaction' and I told him that to never forget that I would never hate him nor ever be angry, just sad but that bottom line I trusted him with this decision! And now i'm thinking I should have never said that, what for?


But I wont hate him, I wont, although he hurt me a lot that day and basically destroyed my love for him, I still wont hate him.....


Anyhow my new years resolution is to never ever search for him again on myspace or anything online, and if I ever feel the temptation to do so then I will quickly do something else like watch a movie, clean, call a friend, just do something!!!!!