this night has been impossible

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-04-2006
this night has been impossible
2
Sat, 12-29-2007 - 9:00am

I have been up since 4:30 am watching the clock. I felt so terrible i actually almost called him at 4:30 (but i didn't). Now i is 9, and i feel like texting him to call me. this is so bad. I am not doing it but its hard. I know reason wont work right now. i keep thinking if i speak with him, he will say yes, its been hard, i do miss you. and the reality is he wont say that. It has been a week now. exactly. my chest hurts and my heart physically aches.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-21-2007
Sat, 12-29-2007 - 10:36am
I know exactly what you are going through.
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-17-2007
Sat, 12-29-2007 - 12:27pm

Been there...still there....They always give us some hope...and really they aren't saying anything promising.


We are imagining the hopeful words.