Thought I was doing better today...
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Thought I was doing better today...
| Tue, 03-25-2008 - 4:26pm |
I guess not! I starting thinking about him being with someone else. My gut tells me that he has been even before I left England. Not just my gut...but I caught him in some lies. On New Years Eve he texted some girl...the text said, "Happy New Years Babe." He said she was just a friend...I believed him. This is the man who paid my bills off, paid for my visa and plane ticket so I could come over and marry him. He sabotaged things before I even got there! From the moment I got there it was a nightmare (one thing after another!) On another occasion he lied to me and said he was going to work...I found a receipt on the floor of our flat the next day that said he was in another town having dinner with someone that night..he paid for it. When I confronted him, he lied. He was still involved with his ex who was an alcoholic. He lied about her...told me they were never involved. Then she passed away and I found out the truth! It hurts...even though I know I don't want someone like this...I still feel so much pain. He doesn't even care.... My God

No no no!!!
i'm sorry you feel bad :(
i know it sucks, but just try as much as possible to push through. allow yourself to grieve. i know it hurts :( :(
but focus on the fact that it will get better. trust me. everyone here and elsewhere would tell me that, and i'd be like "yeah whatever, my life is over" and it truly felt that way. but the more time that passed without me talking to him, the better it got. easier in a way. when these things happen, the shock of it all is so strong in the beginning, but the pain does start to taper off as time goes by. just keep posting and letting it out.
"My God
I clicked on your name and sent you an email yesterday, I hope you got it!