Reconclation Update
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| Sun, 03-30-2008 - 11:05pm |
Well, after seeing my ex Thursday, he had to work the weekend. He works night shift. So this weekend, I spent time with my kids and my friends. He called around 6pm tonight and said that he got off early and asked if he could bring over a pizza and a movie. I said that I would love it, but had plans to go out with my girlfriend. He was cool and called me aorund 10 and asked if I had a good time and what a good night woukd be to get together this week. We agreed on Thursday night.
Now, here is the hard part. When I ended it with him 15 months ago, I took a LONG break from dating. A year in fact. When I went on vacation in Jamaica, I got my grove back on with a great guy I stay in touch with via phone and mail. When my ex asked I told him, what I held back was that Jamaican dude has a ticket to visit me in july. Also the week after I got back, I met someone at the gym and we are causally dating.
I want to concentrate on my ex, as I feel that we have a shot, however, I am not willing to give up either one of these other guys right now. I learned to live without my Ex and feel that I should not close other doors. Jamaica guy is amazing and if he lived here, we would be together. Gym guy is fun to hang with. I guess my question is how much does my EX have to prove? In my heart, I know that I love him, but I guess that I am scary. We have both changed and are being cautious not to make the same mistakes. a HUGE part of me wants to listen to my heart and go full speed, but my intellect is telling me to ease on back in. What is a woman to do?
