Torn inside and Betrayed/ Hated/Fooled
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Torn inside and Betrayed/ Hated/Fooled
| Fri, 04-04-2008 - 5:35pm |
Hello Everyone,
I don't even know if this is the correct place/ heading to ask for help because my betrayal covers just about every topic. Anyway, I'll get to the point. Back in Dec. 07, my ex, started texting me and calling me and asking me to marry him and to give him another chance. I was already dating this other guy ("D") who was amazing but because I still had feelings for my ex, I gave in and let "D" go. My ex was calling me, crying to me, my son, my friend and promising all these things so I thought he'd learn his lesson and truly wanted to be with me again. After I decided to give him another chance, he dropped a bomb shell on me and told me that he was not only dating someone else but also LIVES with this other woman and her 14 yr. old daughter. I was very surprised and kicked myself for letting "D" go. My ex assured me that he didn't feel the same about this other person and that when he returned from his business trip, he would move out of her home and move in with me. He went as far as, telling me to look for a wedding gown, getting the marriage application, talked about bringing our furniture and asked me to make room in the closet for him, which I did.
During the time he was on his business trip, we spoke on the phone and often argued due to the lack of trust and lack of consideration for my feelings. When he was scheduled to return from his trip and come straight to my house, I could no longer get a hold of him on his cell phone. I called him several times and texted him, which he never replied. I finally realized that he went home to her. I'm still very devastated not because I want him back but because I allowed him to ruin what I had with this other person and he once again broke my heart, broke my son's heart and let me down. I also wrote him a letter and reminded him how he made me feel and gave it to his father to give to him. I told my son to not answer any of his texts. I moved out of my home and into another place to avoid him from showing up uninvited and unannounced and I also turned my phone off. I also tried meeting new people online but quickly realized that I'm not ready and gave up on that. I pray at night for strength but I'm still hurting soooo much inside.
I did hear from him 3 days after he let me down yet again via a text and it simply said, "Hello, I'm sorry". He also called me at work and called my son to weazel his way back but I told him to leave us alone. So, he's with his significant other, "D" has also moved on and wants nothing to do with me and I'm left alone to heal, which has been very hard because this time I have no support from family or friends. That is why I'm looking for help, advice, comfort from anyone out there because I feel that I'm falling into a depression. Even if I don't get any responses, it felt good to vent and finally talk about this heartache I have been going through for the past 4 months. Thank you.
I don't even know if this is the correct place/ heading to ask for help because my betrayal covers just about every topic. Anyway, I'll get to the point. Back in Dec. 07, my ex, started texting me and calling me and asking me to marry him and to give him another chance. I was already dating this other guy ("D") who was amazing but because I still had feelings for my ex, I gave in and let "D" go. My ex was calling me, crying to me, my son, my friend and promising all these things so I thought he'd learn his lesson and truly wanted to be with me again. After I decided to give him another chance, he dropped a bomb shell on me and told me that he was not only dating someone else but also LIVES with this other woman and her 14 yr. old daughter. I was very surprised and kicked myself for letting "D" go. My ex assured me that he didn't feel the same about this other person and that when he returned from his business trip, he would move out of her home and move in with me. He went as far as, telling me to look for a wedding gown, getting the marriage application, talked about bringing our furniture and asked me to make room in the closet for him, which I did.
During the time he was on his business trip, we spoke on the phone and often argued due to the lack of trust and lack of consideration for my feelings. When he was scheduled to return from his trip and come straight to my house, I could no longer get a hold of him on his cell phone. I called him several times and texted him, which he never replied. I finally realized that he went home to her. I'm still very devastated not because I want him back but because I allowed him to ruin what I had with this other person and he once again broke my heart, broke my son's heart and let me down. I also wrote him a letter and reminded him how he made me feel and gave it to his father to give to him. I told my son to not answer any of his texts. I moved out of my home and into another place to avoid him from showing up uninvited and unannounced and I also turned my phone off. I also tried meeting new people online but quickly realized that I'm not ready and gave up on that. I pray at night for strength but I'm still hurting soooo much inside.
I did hear from him 3 days after he let me down yet again via a text and it simply said, "Hello, I'm sorry". He also called me at work and called my son to weazel his way back but I told him to leave us alone. So, he's with his significant other, "D" has also moved on and wants nothing to do with me and I'm left alone to heal, which has been very hard because this time I have no support from family or friends. That is why I'm looking for help, advice, comfort from anyone out there because I feel that I'm falling into a depression. Even if I don't get any responses, it felt good to vent and finally talk about this heartache I have been going through for the past 4 months. Thank you.
Aly

Welcome to the board flamily,
Don't beat yourself up too much, k?