Disappointed in myself...
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Disappointed in myself...
| Sun, 04-06-2008 - 1:42am |
Lately, Ive been boycotting myspace, not because of anything major, just because I know it causes problems and it makes me mad. Well, today I get on there for some dumb reason, and I look at the girl that use to be my best friends page who is now sleeping with my ex fiance, and she's like blasting me in this blog. After a few glasses of wine, I got a little annoyed and I called and left a nasty message on her voicemail, then I left one on his. He ended up calling me back, he told me that he only slept with me out of pity and stuff like that... It didn't really bother me much, but the whole situation disgusts me. I have to sit with this girl on April 22nd at a seminar, and I'm really debating not going, because I don't want to see her or any of them for that matter...I'm upset that I stooped to their level, and that's not me... I feel like im living in a soap opera and this is so surreal to me...I know i bring this all on myself, I was doing so well...and today I finally broke.


Carrie and I have a special name for myspace, we call it "Evil dot com" because it truly can be just a hateful place when it's used incorrectly.
Now, I know you know myspace as much as I do and I know you know you can block people, so hop on over to it and block her profile-- now. Don't dawdle on it, and don't think you either can't do it or shouldn't go there again even to just do that because it'll hurt you more or that you may miss out on other things she may say about you, those are all lies you'd be telling yourself and who gives a flying ---- what she thinks ayway. Block her now.
If you've already done it, don't you feel so much better and go ahead and reward yourself, but if you haven't, what are you waiting on? Why allow paths of negativity into your life? Obviously this girl thrives on negativity, and you need to start cutting out negative people from your life, however distant they are from you, just cut them out. Block all them b*tches, ex-bf included, from getting into your personal space in any way, don't let them disrupt your peace. ;-)
As far as a seminar on the 22nd, is this for your career? Because me, I'd show up looking fabulous and ignoring her a$$. If you don't go, she wins. How bout them apples? Can you tell I've had lots of coffee this morning ;-)
Good luck and never let 'em see you sweat.
Sandra,
While this wasn't directed at me, it was just the kick in the butt I needed to really take a "take life by the horns" attitude. Living passively and letting people and circumstances control how we feel and behave is indeed what steals our peace, and I'm definitely going to try to live more purposefully from this point forward. Thanks!
uncommononsense
I can't go back to yesterday--because I was a different person then. --L. Carroll