just wanted to say thanks....
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| Wed, 05-07-2008 - 3:26am |
This board has been such a blessing to me... I am a day away from the one month mark of my break up.. we were together 4 years... even went as far as starting to plan the engagement and moving in together.... when it all went terribly wrong.. I got depressed( I'm a student and my term was unbearable, plus I saw just how controlling he was with this whole apartment, he basically wanted HIS apartment but with me in it.. and I'm sorry I just don't do the Step ford wife syndrome..) and he decided he couldn't handle it so he bailed... as much as it hurts.. I know I am getting stronger every day.. and I realize that HE has the problem not me.. He is such a game player it's pathetic especially at 31 years old!!!..... I can't make someone love me for ME and I'm not even going to try.. I deserve to be respected, loved and cherished completely.. regardless of my education, ambition or my issues.. love SHOULD be unconditional... I'm just thankful that we had this falling out BEFORE we moved in... as based on the past 3 months it wouldn't have been pretty... of course I still love him... but as days go by I love him more for what he brought to my life and not what he could have brought.. as he didn't want to bring anything into our future obviously...
I cannot predict how how the future will turn out... but I am starting to see the sunshine again.. some days of course are better then others.... but it's starting to look up..:)
Insecure men, who need to control.. will not get what they crave most of all unless they sort themselves out.. and I don't think he's ready or willing to do that.. he's the type to play the blame game.. because it's easier then having to open up emotionally... I know he loved me, but I guess he just didn't love me enough... which is fine.. in some ways he's given me the greatest gift.. and that is to find myself again.. and to have the chance to find someone who will love me enough and more.. I'm not ready to date.. as I still need to reinforce just how fabulous I am... but when I am I think the world better look out.. haha....
Anyway I just wanted to say thanks.. I continue to read daily... and there are so many posts on here that mirror my own situation.. it makes me happy to know that I am not alone!
Thanks
Happy Wednesday!:)

Hi and welcome out of hiding :)
Glad to hear the board has helped,