I cheated on him and regret it horribly
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I cheated on him and regret it horribly
| Wed, 03-31-2004 - 8:07pm |
So I love my boyfriend a lot. A whole lot. We never get to see each other and when we do I feel like he's so distant. He's not a very affectionate person unless he wants to be. We used to cuddle all the time and he used to kiss me and hug me and say cute things. But he stopped doin all that. He didnt say I love u as much if ever. So I was just craving some attention and some affection. Two weeks ago I met this guy. Well I went and I didnt plan on having sex with this new guy i had met. I just wanted to cuddle and spend time with him. Well we ended up having sex. So my boyfriend called the next day and immediately knew I had cheated on him. So i didn't lie. I told him what happened. He was upset but he didnt sound pissed. I was thinking about breakin up with him when all that was happening with this other guy because I just wasnt getting the affection I needed. Well when I told my boyfriend that I didn't want to be with him until he was in a position to spend more time with me he just said that if that's what I wanted to do then I should do it. Well after thinkin about it for a day I realized that I had made a huge mistake and I wanted to spend my life with this man. He's cheated on me before and ended up getting some girl pregnant but I forgave him. I've forgiven him for a lot of things. But when I called him and was like I'm still in love with you and I messed up, he put up a cold front and just said,"Whatever. You always say that when you do something." I asked him if he was still in love with me and he said that he loved me but he was no longer in love with me. That hurt but I just figured that was the end. Then he asked if he could come over and have sex with me. I said yes because I missed him and wanted to do it. We've hung out a few more times at my house and we even got a hotel room for a few hours in the past two weeks. But he doesnt hug me or kiss me or even really touch me. We just have intercourse. He's really friendly with me tho. We laugh and talk and joke around but there's even less affection than before. I don't know what to do. All I want to do in the whole world is cuddle with him but I don't wanna initiate anything because I'm afriad he'll push me away. I'm not sure what to think. I want to hope that he's still in love but he says he isnt so I can only assume he isnt. What can I do to fix things at this point?

How could the two of you ever have a trusting monogomous relationship after being that way with each other?
Just my opinion.