Is it over?
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Is it over?
| Mon, 08-30-2004 - 11:05am |
I have been sleeping with my non-boyfriend for two years now and we are not in a relationship. It has always been this way and things have gone up and down in this friendship. I have threatened to leave and walk away yet I always went back even though I knew there was no good in this situation for me. Now for the past couple of weeks I have tried calling him and his phone is no longer in service. I don't know what has happened and I am worried and angry at the same time. Although we are not in a relationship he has always told me he would be straight with me if he wanted to end things. Now I don't know where he is or what is going on. I keep expecting him to call or show up at my door and it hasn't happened and probably never will. I know the best thing for me to do is just say this was all for the better but I am having so much trouble accepting that this is it. And I can't get rid of the feeling that something more is wrong. Does this sound like something I should worry about or just accept the reality of the situation?

Boy have I been where you are too. I know the feeling of anxiety that haunts you and the sleepless nights.
It's easy for us to tell you to get over him and move on, but that's what you have to do. I'll bet when you least expect it, he'll pop up and call you or visit you. They always do for a quickie and then they disappear again.
You have absolutely no way of getting in touch with him right?
Then you know you have to forget him, otherwise, you'll make yourself sick over him. You can't live like this.
I'm sorry and believe me, I know how you feel.