Still angry after 4 months..help!
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| Fri, 04-14-2006 - 5:38pm |
Heres the background info. I am 22, i was dating my x bf for almost 2 years. He is 24. We had a good relationship, we were very close, my family helped him out tremendously (he was an orphan). My father helped pay off his truck and even let him stay in our property with very cheap rent. Nonetheless, we had plans to marry and move in together. But his old ways came back to him, and he became very possessive, controlling and couldnt trust me. He accused me of cheating on him with his friends because his friends and i were close. He outcasted everyone in his life and started doing cocaine. He became extremely paranoid and called everyone in my phone book threatening them. When i found all this out, we had a big bad breakup and it ended horribly. We havent talked since dec 1. My birthday was nov 28th, and we were together, and then 2 days later we never speak again. Its been very hard.
Anyway about 3 weeks after we broke up, dec 21st, he broke into my house when i was at work and stole all my jewelry, money, xmas gifts, and trashed my room. He took jewelry that i cant ever replace (my grandmother passed away, and i was given some of her jewelry). My mom gave me some necklaces for my brithdays...everything is gone. I did go through the police and he was arrested after they found evidence of my belongings in his house, including some drug money. Well my father didnt want to press charges for fear of him retaliating and hurting me.
I havent spoke to him, and thus i have no closure. Inside im still so angry and ive always been the type to go from relationship to relationship. I always have a boyfriend or atleast someone im dating. But im still so emotionally exhausted from this. I cant get over what he did to me, ESPECIALLY after all i did and my family did for him. I want answers and i dont know what 2 do to be able to move on from this. I loved him and i still do. From what ive heard through his x friends (they all stopped being his friends)hes become a jerk and is sleepin around with diff girls to just be a a$$hole. It hurts inside cause i cant picture all this.. and it makes me wonder who he was this whole time i was with him. We went from talkin about marriage, to not talking at all, to him robbing me, to him sleeping with whores.
How can i put this behind me? Im afraid to date again, incase of getting hurt. Im afraid to let someone in, in fear of wasting another 2 yrs. Im just so apprehensive about men now..and its awful. help!!
| Fri, 04-14-2006 - 7:15pm |
