This may be THE weekend

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Registered: 04-11-2003
This may be THE weekend
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Fri, 02-27-2004 - 12:16pm
And I just feel all these mixed emotions. I mean things were really good last week end I didn't mess up at all! We didn't argue or nothing. I should have known it was the calm before the storm. I am reading the book Verbal Abuse Survivors Speak out. What an eye opener! I am just feeling so confused, sad, angry. All at once today. Tired of walking around on egg shells and when I think I am doing things right, I mess up. Yesterday I came home and instead of taking a shower first i folded the clean clothes. my god what was I thinking I have germs all over me from coming home from work and I don't even think about taking a shower first?! Those were his words! Turned into an hour and a hlaf lecture. I woke up at 2:30 a.m. and he was on the couch but boy could I ever smell the "pot" he had been smoking. he always seems calmer when he does that so I guess I don't mind to much that he does it. Is there really life out there when i leave him? I don't even think I know who I am anymore. I almost feel like he is winning this game of his! Thanks for listening~
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Fri, 02-27-2004 - 12:59pm

Pot, among other things,

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 04-04-2003
Fri, 02-27-2004 - 1:47pm

That book you are reading is a good one, I too, have that same book.