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| Fri, 02-27-2004 - 3:17pm |
Well, I almost screwed things up with Kevin, all because I still love John. It all started yesterday when I was out looking for a new truck. One of Johns friends saw me and he called me up chewing me out and questioning me on how i can afford it and just giving me the third degree. Well Kevin called in and got mad because I didn't just hang up on John. I am just worried about what he'll do if I get him mad enough. He has already threatenend Kevin and to come to my house and I am just so sick of everything. I sometimes wish I would have just stayed with my stbx and stayed miserable, then at least I wouldn't have to worry about making others miserable. My best friend asked me last night if i was honestly gonna go back to john, either now or in the future and it scared me because I couldn't honestly answer no. He has got some kind of hold on me. I know he treats me like s&%t, degrades me, yells at me, shows me no respect, yet i still love him. I wsish i could give kevin my whole heart, but i am so worried about getting hurt or hurting him. I know he loves me more then John ever did, or at least he shows me he does. i just don't know how much more of John Kevin can take. If i hang up on John he calls back continuously. I did by a notebook that I am gonna document everything that gets said and done between us and the kids. Thanks for letting me vent again. Christina



Hi Christina -
I am so sorry you're being torn like this.
CL-Blueliner4
When someone shows you who they are, believe them.
- Maya Angelou