Dharma . . .

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Dharma . . .
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Tue, 03-02-2004 - 8:56am
This is exactly why you need to go through with the filing today - you know deep down it will never get better and you'll never be happy. These are your own words . . .

"after 15 years of hating this, 4 attempts at marriage counseling, 1 Retrouvaille weekend, and countless hours of talking with no resolution. And yet I don't hate him....but I don't love him either. I just want him out of my day to day life."

You are being a good mother by getting a job and getting your kids out of this situation.

Jackie

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: jthomer
Tue, 03-02-2004 - 9:08am
Jackie~

Thank you so much for your kind words.....right now, I'm shaking, nervous and scared and keep thinking "what the HECK am I doing????". But for so many years, fear kept me here...not fear of physical harm but fear of the unknown, thinking that I can't do it, that I'm going to screw up the kids...all of which my husband has fed into. I've got a knot in my stomach but I'm trying to push through it and not let fear dictate to me....I just hope that I don't regret this.....

dharma

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Registered: 04-04-2003
In reply to: jthomer
Tue, 03-02-2004 - 9:56am
I think you are doing the right thing.