Advice, support...anything
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Advice, support...anything
| Sun, 03-07-2004 - 5:24pm |
He sent me a Valentine's card with a letter a few weeks ago and yesturday i received a short letter from him. I did read them. I know some of you who know my story are thinking i shouldn't of bothered to read his letters because its like having contact. I couldn't help but be curious as to what he has been doing with himself since i left him almost 8 months ago. He joined the Air Force. He probably thinks since he's done something positive with his life that i'll get over my anger and talk to him or give him another chance. When i left him I told him that the only thing i want for him to do is better himself any way that he could because he would NEVER have another chance with me. I know he's hoping he can somehow make it up to me and make things better between us since the last conversation we had was not very friendly which was back in September. I'm still angry at him and still feel like ripping his head off. He said in his letter that he can't imagine not ever talking to me again and he even compared it to the pain when his mother disowned him and told him he's not her son anymore. He also said he still loved me and thinks about me all the time. Whatever.... he's still an a--hole, and joining the Air Force sure as heck ain't going to make him a better person. I've been debating on whether i should write him back or just not contact him at all. I have so many feelings to let out but at the same time i want to keep it short and simple. I want to tell him that i'm glad for what he's done for himself but its time for him to move on and not contact me anymore. I don't love him and i don't want him back in my life. I'm sure i said all these things to him before but i know he didn't take them serious because he thought it was my anger speaking and maybe i didn't mean all those things that i said. He's so clueless. Well other than that I'm still a little depressed and still trying to work on me but i'm much better than before. I'm still struggling with Nursing school. I didn't do to well on my first exam and i'm not too happy about that. My 2nd exam is tomorrow and it covers so many chapters that i haven't read or studied. I don't have motivation to study and i find it difficult to concentrate. I'm afraid that i won't pass. I need atleast a 75% to pass into the next semester. Well i'm going to try and study right now. Hope everyone is ok. Thanks for listening. Hugs, Tia.

I have to keep this short, hon -
Don't write him back.
CL-Blueliner4
Anyways the good news is i passed my 2nd nursing exam. I got an 86%. My clinical instructor congratulated me this morning. That felt good. I didn't think i would do that well so it surprised me when i found out. Thank God. I needed something to cheer me up. Again thank you so very much for your help gals. I really needed it. Many hugs, Tia.
Yeah, you go girl!
CL-Blueliner4