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why ????
| Tue, 03-09-2004 - 10:12am |
yesterday i went to the police station , got 4 past reports of abuse , i also called the sherriff's department to find out why they have not picked him up yet. they still have not returned my call. after i was done all of my running around yesterday around 4:10 in the afternoon i was on my way to pick my children up from daycare and my cell phone rang. it was a hang up -- i almost called the # back but i stopped myself-- what if this was him trying to have me call his mothers home to make it look like i broke my end of the restraining order??? i didn't call it back . then about 10 minutes later the same # came up - i said hello - it was him - i asked who is this - he says who do u think it is in this sweet voice- i replied - u must be one dumb mother f***er! then i hung up . i went straight to the police station in my hometown and filed a report. see my question of "why" is why did i double think myself on my way to the police station?? why do i keep thinking that i miss him -- that my heart is broken -- that i want him in my life??? i kept thinking, "if i go to the police station and he get's locked up he is not going to ever talk to me again." why do i care?? he is an abusive jerk and yes , he did beat me on several occasions in front of my children. i just feel like i still love him but the final straw is i did the right thing and court is on thursday -- just two more days till d-day.

Hugs,
Jackie