why ????

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-27-2003
why ????
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Tue, 03-09-2004 - 10:12am
yesterday i went to the police station , got 4 past reports of abuse , i also called the sherriff's department to find out why they have not picked him up yet. they still have not returned my call. after i was done all of my running around yesterday around 4:10 in the afternoon i was on my way to pick my children up from daycare and my cell phone rang. it was a hang up -- i almost called the # back but i stopped myself-- what if this was him trying to have me call his mothers home to make it look like i broke my end of the restraining order??? i didn't call it back . then about 10 minutes later the same # came up - i said hello - it was him - i asked who is this - he says who do u think it is in this sweet voice- i replied - u must be one dumb mother f***er! then i hung up . i went straight to the police station in my hometown and filed a report. see my question of "why" is why did i double think myself on my way to the police station?? why do i keep thinking that i miss him -- that my heart is broken -- that i want him in my life??? i kept thinking, "if i go to the police station and he get's locked up he is not going to ever talk to me again." why do i care?? he is an abusive jerk and yes , he did beat me on several occasions in front of my children. i just feel like i still love him but the final straw is i did the right thing and court is on thursday -- just two more days till d-day.
iVillage Member
Registered: 04-04-2003
In reply to: trisha8175
Tue, 03-09-2004 - 10:29am
Aww Trisha ~~~~HUGS~~~~~
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: trisha8175
Tue, 03-09-2004 - 10:30am
Yes, you did the right thing. This shows just what an enormously strong lady you are. Keep remembering this: I have been there 27 years - it just goes on and on and on. You have to find the strength within yourself to stay strong. The best thing that could ever happen to you is for him to never speak to you again.

Hugs,

Jackie