Oh Wishful...first of all OF COURSE it is OK. I am so sorry that they are just using you as a verbal punching bag. Huge Hugs to you. I really dont have an answer for you about why these people are like this. Just remember it is not your fault that they are the way they are. I hope soon that you will be out of that house and you can finally have some peace for yourself. Then you will be able to finally breathe I think. I dont know what else to say but just to offer you a hug and say that you can get through this.
One thing that you probably won't see until you've gotten out of there, given yourself time to heal and can look back upon, is that most of what is happening is alot of the conditioning you went through.
You've been conditioned to be the funnel through which much crap flows. Alot of abusers keep us as the bucket to catch it all, some just keep us having to think we have to deal with everyone's mess when we just want to be left alone.
Keep striving to find that way out, keep a positive attitude towards working on yourself and trying to heal. I'm just glad that you do come in to the boards and post to vent as it does allow you to let go of alot of it with those who fully understand.
You will get out of there one of these days, just keep working towards it.
Ree
One thing that you probably won't see until you've gotten out of there, given yourself time to heal and can look back upon, is that most of what is happening is alot of the conditioning you went through.
You've been conditioned to be the funnel through which much crap flows. Alot of abusers keep us as the bucket to catch it all, some just keep us having to think we have to deal with everyone's mess when we just want to be left alone.
Keep striving to find that way out, keep a positive attitude towards working on yourself and trying to heal. I'm just glad that you do come in to the boards and post to vent as it does allow you to let go of alot of it with those who fully understand.
You will get out of there one of these days, just keep working towards it.
Stay strong wishful!
Hugs