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| Wed, 03-24-2004 - 9:28am |
I appreciate all of the replies to my first post, I feel very comfortable here! It has been a rough week. Saturday was the last blow up we had. I am fighting a losing battle. We, (my fiancee and I) finally talked last night and I found out that he has abused women before. I asked him if he treated his ex's the way he treats me and he said "yeah". I tried to talk to him about a lot of things and I honestly don't think that he has a clue about the way he treats me. I told him that he is an abuser and he said that is "my opinion". I am so frustrated!! I gave the engagement ring back to him and have started looking for a place to live. I am stressing out because I think he will go off the deep end when he finds out I am looking for a new place. But, I am not staying because I know it will happen again (now that I know his history)because it always happens again.
Thank you for allowing me to "vent"! I hope this makes sense, I am kind of in limbo right now. I have some other poems I would like to share with the board sometime.
Thank you for allowing me to "vent"! I hope this makes sense, I am kind of in limbo right now. I have some other poems I would like to share with the board sometime.

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I wouldn't give my ex the engagement ring back. I don't know why I wanted to keep it. Maybe part of me is still holding on. Or maybe part just was ticked that he had the nerve to ask for it back after all he did. Anyway, I kept it. My sister says I should make a necklace out of it. We will see.
Good luck.
Jen
writing is a great way to release feelings. i write all the time. i write so much i've had to start typing. i have 3 notebooks full of poetry. my thoughts run so fast that it's easier if i type them. so now i have a notebook full of files. it's nice to be able to look back and read something and be able to know exactly how you felt. keep sharing.
good luck
mel
Hi Ane, glad we could help.
On the homepage, there's a link to a safety checklist for how to get out of the situation safely.
CL-Blueliner4
Roller Coaster
Am I okay? Somebody asked me..
I replied to them, "Yes of course, can't you see?
It was written on my face and not easy to hide
An emotional roller coaster is taking me for a ride
I can't take anymore! There is too much stress!
My heart is racing and my mind is a mess
Around and around I go
Where does it stop? Does anybody know?
This ride is crazy and I don't like it at all
I feel like crying and curling up into a ball
That does nothing, this I know
Eventually something has got to blow
The end is in sight, I believe it has to be
This ride was a journey, a trip inside of me.
The me I have been searching for all of these years
Was hidden away behind all the fears
Liane Albus
March 25, 2001
If you go over to metacrawler.com (I don't like Google, but I'm sure it has info, too) and type in "how to publish poetry", there's a bunch of links for self-publishing.
CL-Blueliner4
Jen
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