waiting....waiting
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| Mon, 05-10-2004 - 4:42pm |
So now I'm playing this stupid waiting game, actually it's the same game I was playing before, waiting till I see if I pass this test to see if I can get a job. But now it's waiting for this temporary relief to end.
And if I leave while it's still going on, I'll be looked at as the doofus for leaving when things are fine.
Did talk to my cousin (my lawyer), he assured me that actually I'll be pretty well off financially. That because of the disparity in incomes and the length of time we've been married, I'd not only get alimony, but probably the house as well, since there's some (but not much) equity in it, and it is inexpensive (as homes in this area go), and we live in a good school zone, where the youngest is scheduled to go through high school now. Talking to him really helped to ease alot of my fears.
But still, now things are calm, and I'm still making plans to leave. and I sit here and question, what if this is the time he really does understand how much his abuse hurts, maybe you can't see it on the outside, but it bruises just as bad on the inside. And yet, I know it won't be the last time, so I guess I should just enjoy the peace while it lasts.
Lori
