Need some support after h's raging

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Registered: 09-19-2003
Need some support after h's raging
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Tue, 05-25-2004 - 8:35am
This morning I can barely type the words because my hands won't stop shaking. My h went into one of his rages last night that lasted for hours. And he just went off on me on the telephone. It doesn't matter to him if I beg him to stop or the impact his rages have on me.

I feel like I am facing death each day. I feel so worthless even though my head knows that is not true. I just don't understand how someone can attack you and then get up and go to work like normal. Sometimes when I hear his voice, I just drop to the floor and curl into a ball. Without thinking, my body just seems to do it. At work, if someone unexpectedly walks into my office, I jump or have to fight back the tears because I am so scared of what is coming.

I just can't deal anynmore.

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Registered: 11-12-2003
Tue, 05-25-2004 - 4:02pm

Hi Booboo, sweetie, welcome back -


You need to get out of there.

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 11-11-2003
Tue, 05-25-2004 - 5:49pm

I'm so sorry for what you are going through, booboo66.

Peace and hugs,

Cheryl =)

The minute you settle for less than you

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Registered: 09-19-2003
Wed, 05-26-2004 - 8:12am
Thanks for responses. I really just needed to vent. I am trying to make a plan to change my life situation. I want to live free of fear. And I need to take action to make that happen. It just seems like such an uphill battle.

It's so nice to come to this board where people get it. I am at working - looking up info on available counselors for DV. My insurance will cover it. It will be my weekly link to sanity.