Morning Blow Up

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Registered: 09-19-2003
Morning Blow Up
Thu, 06-10-2004 - 8:25am
This morning I am totally numb. I haven’t had the official test at the

Dr.’s yet but think I am pregnant. Now it seems like my h is totally into verbally attacking daily, especially in front of our 6 year old. I cannot go through what my h put me through with my first pregnancy. I know the only reason I and our son survived is by the grace and mercy of God.

This morning my h went off on me because I planned to wear some blue pants and couldn’t find them. It took about a 10 minute search to find the pants and he just began to ask me a million questions as to why those pants. The argument was so illogical that it made my head hurt. I simply wanted to wear those pants and had already ironed a shirt to go with them. That is all. But that is not acceptable to him and he began calling me names and accusing me of all sort of things. All this in front of my son who had to absorb this and then go to school.

Right now I am very tired and nauseous. Typical pregnancy issues that are made harder and painful because my h is pushing me to do more physically and making sure to attack me emotionally at each opportunity. Emotionally right now I don’t feel anything. Just like I am watching this on TV or something. All this and I am preparing the house and 6 year old for a move several states away. My h is in the military. Now I am rambling on. Just needed a chance to vent. Thanks for listening.