we are leaving

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Registered: 07-08-2004
we are leaving
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Sun, 10-31-2004 - 12:24pm
Hi everyone, i hope peace is with all of you. We will be leaving for our trip in one day. I have been making a plan to get out of the house alone to go to a clinic, i found one in the super pages that is on the far side of the city. I called while from a grocery store payphone so it will not show on our phone bill. They do not have a daycare area so i have to get out of the house without any children. i will have birthdays to shop for when we come back so that is going to be my excuse to go alone. I have to plan what stores to go to and pick things up at also so i will have receipts. I am going to try to make him so so happy this trip and pray that he will let me go then when we are back. I even memorized the directions from internet to go there. I am terrified of him finding out and i have to try to be so sure and confident about it when i come back from there because he can be very demanding and scary when he suspects me of lying. i get very nervous and my heart races and at those times i am telling the truth. I should go now but i hope everyone is safe and well.
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Registered: 09-17-2004
Mon, 11-01-2004 - 1:41pm
I am a member of the New Beginnings board, but I check this board as well to offer any support or ask for advice when I need some... I have made a point to watch for your posts and I have to tell you, Your situation literally breaks my heart. I know you are not really in a position where you can just up and get a divorce. I understand the situation with the children and the fear or losing them to your husband. I understand that you do not have very many choices that are your OWN, and I am just so sorry for that!

I wish there was something that could be done for you. I wish that I could convey to you that it DOESN'T have to be like that, it isn't supposed to be like that.

My prayers are with you, I send you BIG hugs and strength. I am glad that you are going to the clinic and you have been working on a way to be able to get there when you get back from your trip. That is very important to your health, it is far too soon for you to be getting pregnant again.

Take care, I hope that your trip was at leat a little relaxing for you.

jen