What I will never understand......

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Registered: 05-12-2004
What I will never understand......
Sun, 12-19-2004 - 10:44am
What I will never understand.....
I will never understand my H's wharped mind. I will never understand why he feels that I am disrespectful just because I don't aggree with his opinion of what is correct in his mind. I will never understand why he cannot or will not see that what he does is pure evil. I will never understand how someone can say they love you SO DEEPLY and yet tell you the most horrible things and degrade you to the point of making you cry your heart out! I don't think I will ever understand why I have put up with this for so many years and why I just can't walk out right this minute! I will never understand why he is so hard done by and has such a horrible wife (me)and has given up so much and used me as his excuse for never getting what he wanted and yet he stays with me!! I will never get the fact that this man takes everything and I mean everything and uses it as a weapon to get at me. I will nver get that fact that his need to be right overrides everything and everyone including our children. I will never understand his stupid thought processes that make him do the strangest things in retaliation toward me...like turing off the fridge because I wanted a new one and the one we have is not good enough for me ...even though it is 15 years old and has been fixed twice in the last 6 months and the repair guy said if it continued to play up to buy a new one as it would not be worth fixing again!!! I will never understand how he can justify in his mind calling me a c**t because I refused to listen to him tell me how I have been a a***ole for the last 10 years of our relationship because I never gave to him all I ever did was take and be selfish!! I will never understand why I gave this man chance after chance after chance to continuously hurt me. I WILL UNDERSTAND THAT HE WILL NOT CHANGE AND I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE HIS VENOM ANYMORE!! Rock on christmas because next year is my year I am leaving that I do understand
I I want for christmas is freedom more than anything!!!
Thanks for the rant girls
bye for now
M